My Heartfelt Words- MW

*This post was originally posted in my own blog,

but were afraid that you guys would missed it, so i re-posted it here again ;)

Below was what i wrote in my post titled-;

"Weather- Friends Forever"
June 29, 2009
I have always find myself constantly caught in the dilemma between friendships and the issue of personal integrity.

I really dislike the fact that may a times, we can only choose only one between the two-
Lose a friend, preserve your integrity.

Or, stop being a smart- arse about personal integrity, and keep that friend.
You must be wondering, ‘what has personal integrity has got to do with friendships?’

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It’s a very sad and a harsh reality that as we all grow older and wiser, weather- friends (without the fore-word- 'fair') from childhood become more distant from you, as we head for our own individual destinies, our fated paths and roads. Friends you could joke around with no strings attached, the same friends that would kick you in the face with no qualms when you are acting foolishly, and the same ones that would standby you with no second thoughts nor a question, become farther, further from us.
Sometimes, they seem to almost completely disappear from our lives as things get busier and as we found things that seemed to be apparently much more important than them, things that apparently demand more attention than them.

We then try to seek for the same kind of weather friends as we go along our own paths, to look for such weather- friends on the same paths as us as substitutes for our real weather- friends. However, looking for weather- friends prove to be harder than imagined. Some are much more fortunate, they have their very own weather- friends with them throughout their lives and roads.

You no longer have friends who were once as innocent as you were, who promise to stand by you through thick and thin, through joy and weepy periods, instead, those friends you made along the way, sometimes proves to be much less sincere than you believed them to be, and in fact, much more distance than you actually realise- or chose to believe. Such ‘touch- and- go’ friends, are easy to find, however close you may be with them, they can’t, they are unable to make friends with you freely and with no expectations. i call such type of friends the ’superficial’- friends, or the fair- weather friends.

To me, ’superficial’ friends are those whom you never get to see what’s really beneath them and vice versa them to what’s really behind you. Conversations are sometimes somehow forced or flowered, or if needed, may even be peppered with untruths. Where many things are not discussed or best left unsaid.

I know these, because, i admit that i do belonged to the category of ’superficial’ - type of friends to some of my friends as well. It has been harder for me to make friends with anyone without withholding back, and without having certain expectations of them.

And when i myself belonged to the ’superficial’- type of friends to some of my friends as well, that’s when the issue of personal integrity comes in. Whether i am willing to succumb to their unlimited favours from him/her, and be able to bite back despondence of the fact that they call for you, only when they needed you. If i succumb, to a certain aspect, the issue of integrity comes in, the frequent over and over again confirmation that you are nothing more than just a convenience for them- they seldom call on you for else.

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but it's only when you have 'superficial' friends,
would you discover your all- weather friends.

This post is dedicated to my wonderful weather friends i had since the early days of my high school years.

Thank you for always being there for me during the hardest times when i really needed you guys.

Thank you for being my weather- friends.

And for all this i am truly grateful..

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my darling friends,

i am really, really, really missing you guys like crazy!!

and dang, did i mention that you guys look fantastic below???